Sometimes the universe gives you a nudge and you gotta recognize. When my life turned to crap 20 years ago I absolutely cried trying to "right" things and get back on the so-called normal path. ::buzzer sound::
All that did was lead to humiliation and almost my death. Turns out I couldn't rebuild until I addressed my weaknesses ... and reevaluated myself again after repairs. That ultimately turned my life's goals completely around and made me actually thank those life changes for the gifts they presented.
I was granted a vision that most don't see so early in life.This let me refashion my inner self based on a new foundation of knowledge, education, and experience instead of that old origin - fear and unknown.
Frankly, I wouldn't trade where I'm at today for any of the other possible outcomes of my life. This has been the right path for me and that torturous gauntlet was a necessary hazard of my road.